The mind is both a gift and curse. It’s such a bittersweet thing that rules over our lives, having less of an influence in some than in others. It is our minds that allow us to think, an action that can bring out the best, the worst, and the greatest frustration in some people. For me it’s the latter, sadly.
I can’t just do things. I can’t do it. Nike’s slogan contains the simplest three words and yet together they create a phrase that becomes the hardest thing for me to do. I can’t “just do it.” I end up questioning myself over and over again, thinking of every possible outcome to every possible situation before I just do something. It’s both good, helping me avoid sticky situations, and bad because I end up being unable to decide what to say/what to do and simply do nothing. Then later on I’ll get annoyed with myself because I couldn’t loosen my barriers for once and “just do it.”
I have to wonder how some people are able to just do things without giving a second thought to it. I really wish I had that ability, for it would make my life so much easier. Instead, I’m stuck with a mind that makes everything go through a thousand checks and barriers and walls before actually coming out. It’s infuriating at times, but what can you do?
I thought I was getting better, and I think I am because I’m slightly more outgoing than I was before, but I still quintuple guess myself. lskdjfjlsdhdks
Maybe I should just keep myself extremely tired or hyper. Those are the only time the thousand barriers in my mind break free and I end up doing whatever the hell I feel like doing. It’s a rather liberating feeling.
Ah well, I don’t know. I’m just typing my random thoughts for the day.
