Another School Year

So junior year’s over. Starting next year I’m a senior. Geez that’s a pretty scary thought, to be honest. It feels like just seconds ago I had graduated middle school and entered high school, and soon after two more months I’ll be part of the next graduating class. It’s a thought I still can’t believe. It’s especially saddening because my family will be moving to California after I graduate because my dad has to go work at his company’s main branch, so there most likely won’t be much of a chance that I’ll be able to see my high school friends again, unless someone is willing to let me live with them

As for this year, I’m content. My grades sucked a lot so my rank will most likely fall a bit, but I did a LOT more extracurricular stuff, especially piano-wise, so that made up for my grades. Next year though will be my return to studying. I mean it. I intend to force myself to work during gov school which will in turn help my study habits for next year. Hopefully.

Overall though, junior year has been a changing point in my life in more ways than one. Things happened that I expected, things happened that I definitely didn’t expect (one in particular…), but hey life comes at you from all directions. It wouldn’t be exciting if you were going down a straight path with no twists or turns.

Congratulations to this year’s graduating class! Senior class of 2010, let’s do this!

Thinking

The mind is both a gift and curse. It’s such a bittersweet thing that rules over our lives, having less of an influence in some than in others. It is our minds that allow us to think, an action that can bring out the best, the worst, and the greatest frustration in some people. For me it’s the latter, sadly.

I can’t just do things. I can’t do it. Nike’s slogan contains the simplest three words and yet together they create a phrase that becomes the hardest thing for me to do. I can’t “just do it.” I end up questioning myself over and over again, thinking of every possible outcome to every possible situation before I just do something. It’s both good, helping me avoid sticky situations, and bad because I end up being unable to decide what to say/what to do and simply do nothing. Then later on I’ll get annoyed with myself because I couldn’t loosen my barriers for once and “just do it.”

I have to wonder how some people are able to just do things without giving a second thought to it. I really wish I had that ability, for it would make my life so much easier. Instead, I’m stuck with a mind that makes everything go through a thousand checks and barriers and walls before actually coming out. It’s infuriating at times, but what can you do?

I thought I was getting better, and I think I am because I’m slightly more outgoing than I was before, but I still quintuple guess myself. lskdjfjlsdhdks

Maybe I should just keep myself extremely tired or hyper. Those are the only time the thousand barriers in my mind break free and I end up doing whatever the hell I feel like doing. It’s a rather liberating feeling.

Ah well, I don’t know. I’m just typing my random thoughts for the day.

How Do People Give Advice?

I wish I knew how therapists got people to feel better. The human mind is just so vast and intricate that I don’t understand how it is possible for therapists to do what they’re paid to do.  The way I see it is that there’s two options for giving advice: optimism or reality.  If you try to make people feel better by being optimistic and trying to get them to hope for something better and/or see life in a brighter light, you may help them realize that life isn’t so bad after all.  On the downside, you may also fill them with false hope, which they will regret you for later on.  On the other hand, if you throw reality at someone to try and make them feel better, you may encourage them to try and fix what’s wrong in order to put their life back together.  On the downside, you may also cause them simply to feel worse as you push reality in their faces.

What about a mix of the two?  That would be ideal, but it’s hard to accomplish depending on the situation.  The easiest way to mix them up is if you’re giving advice in a situation you’ve gone through.  Then you know what to do and what to say.  However, what if you weren’t in that situation?  What if you don’t know how the person is truly feeling because you’ve never gone through their problems?  What do you say to them then, optimism or reality?  And how will you know which option is the right choice?  I’ve always gone with optimism, but lately I’ve been questioning my hypocricy.  In reality, life is not always sunny happy rainbows and flowers.  Life has problems and issues.  Instead of telling people to hope, maybe telling people to take responsibility for their actions and fix things up would be better, but would that be too harsh?

Of course though there’s always the option of humor, but that’s just a temporary sidetrack before the sticky situation hits you again.  It may be good for a short time, but eventually it’ll wear off.

I really don’t know at this point.  These are just random thoughts that have been going through my head recently.  I want to help people who are feeling down, I truly do, but sometimes it seems like I don’t because I don’t know what to say, and that is far from what I really wish.

Hiatus

Hello. Just updating to let you know that I’m still alive, though I’m going through a stage in life where nothing seems to be going right, not to mention I have way too much schoolwork than I make it out to be.

I will be resuming regular posting on here as well as a certain forum (if they haven’t killed me yet) asap.